Most things I do dear to me, I do in my own time, in private. Meditating and saying aloud affirmations with someone near is new to me, a strange concept of gravity that elates faster, quicker, from the heart when said aloud… with someone else listening. It is almost as if the person next to me can hear the truth that quivers through me as I say thank you for intimate things and this gives it more emphasis. It’s as though the words are more alive with someone there to witness them.
As we rode down the curvy valley enclosed with large trees, with shadows covering our car in soft elongated hues, I said aloud my first thank you, I asked for a sign of yellow flowers. Within minutes yellow flowers were everywhere. Popping out towards the road, almost squeezed in, lining our car. We laughed, ‘it worked’, or it could be I subconsciously chose a very familiar color to this part… who knows.
My friend got a call, right between the first vision of tall yellow flowers, that someone close to her had taken her own life. A dear friend who was too young. Her age defying this old World, in the history of heartache, fallen love and forgotten times, she let go of what was inside to see the better part of where she came from. I pray for the families hearts to heal and to understand.
As we stopped the car against dried tall reeds that we stood in smelt of Earth, of strength in the confidence of it’s place. We hiked a bit, before finding water and we spoke of the trail we found, like it was there for us, perfect in it’s leading path. We cleansed in the water, removing the last days of our summer’s heat, rejoicing in the change of fall. Colors fell softly, burnt, subtle colors of purple flowers were everywhere. We sent love and health for the families loss.
Before the knowledge of us giving out affirmations aloud, or getting a call that confirmed my vision… I long ago had this urge, this ache, to start photographing this growth inside of me. A change for a simpler solitude closer to the beginning of where I started. This vision for me, in what I wanted to play with for this shoot, was an understanding of spiritual growth. This shoot was not about anything more, but capturing the hidden obstacle, the truth, we are all searching for.